{so long sweet one}
Remember this post about aging and my grandmother? Well she has fallen asleep in death and this week has been especially hard for me. I think I've experienced every single emotion imaginable to mankind. Sorrow, tears, fear, pain, joy, guilt, anxiety, numbness... what a roller coaster ride. I simply cannot believe she's gone after knowing her my entire life - she was at the hospital the day I was born and has been a friend to me ever since. I have very little to say about this except that I am feeling very lonely and my heart feels like it is just sitting heavy in my chest. Oh death, why must you start taking my dear ones now that I've finally grown up enough to start appreciating them?
My Millie
April 29, 1920 - June 1, 2009
"The tide recedes, but leaves behind bright seashells on the sand. The sun goes down but the gentle warmth still lingers on the land. The music stops and yet it echoes in sweet refrains. For every joy that passes something beautiful remains." - unknown.
I love you grandma. :*
(image: holly becker)
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Last year, my grandfather died -- he was my last surviving grandparent. I grew up right next door to him, so he loomed very large in my life growing up. He was so tough, I really thought he would be around for another decade, but it was not to be.
Your happy memories of your grandmother will surely help you get through this difficult time.
Peace,
Lisa H.
Blessings and love from Italy,
Federica.
xo
mer
Love and best wishes to you and your family x
All the best to you, and feel lucky you've met her! :)
xo Anita, Austria
Was bleibt, ist die Liebe
Regards, Monica
Hugs from Morocco
I am so sorry to hear this. I can feel for you. it was such a sad time when my grandma died. In your case it is such a coincidence that she said goodbye before you are leaving for Germany - just like she wanted to make it easier to leave this behind. So there is space for a new life. And believe me ; she is watching you from somewhere. I feel mine around me with nearly everything I do: watching me when I am cooking her things after her recipes, I feel her with me when I am rising my children or think of her advice when it comes to marriage. You will soon feel this too if you had a strong relationship. So that is something to look forward to. Feel yourself hugged in these time of pain!
Yvonne
The memories of how wonderful your grandma was will give you such strength in your life, I know it. Part of her lives on in you.
I'll be thinking of you.
Take care,
Marianne.
Best wishes.
Last week when I was on holiday I started to cry while buying postcards, because I had always sent her one, from wherever I was, and this time it was no longer possible.
Her obituary read: Night came, and I went to the stars.
i am so sorry about your grandmother's death. i am sending you peace as you begin to navigate the journey that is grief.
my grandmother was one of my closest friends...she died four years ago and it still feels unbelievable some days. my grandfather (her husband) died in march and i am still wrapping my brain around this truth. yet, this i know, each day, i remember how they took my hand and showed me how to live in this life...and each day, i try to give that gift back to the world.
i hope you will be gentle with yourself and let people know when you need support. give yourself that gift.
blessings,
liz
xoxo,
Jules
Suddenly life seems so fragile and fleeting.
It sounds like your grandmother had such a wonderful spirit and it's so amazing that you have so many wonderful memories. Rest easy knowing that she is at peace...
much love,
alex
I hope you find some light and stillness within.
Thinking of you.
x
Lisa
xo
Melis